dear friends,
you will never guess where I was last night.
so I will tell you.
I was at a club. at a dance party. at night. in Israel.
but with a purpose.
it was seriously so much fun, being invited to hang out with a bunch of people our age with the intent of being set apart, blessing the youth of Israel & also having good, clean fun. we found out that the party was held for the east asia studies department at tel aviv university, so we, being asian, were a huge hit ! dancing & talking with everyone was really awesome.
we were even able to bless one of the girls with prayer & she shared how special that moment was for her. and then today, my team had a divine appointment when we unintentionally bumped into her at the university ! we talked to her for several hours about so many subjects & was able to invite her to our dinner party on saturday.
lately, God has been really been drawing me back to Him. at times I find myself dissatisfied & anxious about the things that I have to do in the very little time I have remaining here. the goals & expectations I brought into this outreach rise to the surface & draw attention away from the one I love & bring me to a place of unrest. it became all about the "do, do, do" mentality.
but during this week, He has really redeemed & restored me unto Himself & I have come to this conclusion: if I am to leave this outreach saying with my whole heart, " I have fallen more in love with Jesus" then I will be more than satisfied. because that's just it--that's all that matters. it isn't about how many souls I've brought to the Lord--it's about my soul returning humbly to the foot of the cross, ready to be used, but even more ready to adore & worship my faithful king.
"I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about You
it's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
when it's all about You
all about You, Jesus"
He has already done so much for me & within me. more than enough.
two weeks left. falling more & more deeply each day.
love,
r.
